Blue October

So I just descovered Blue October. I'd had friends tell me about them before, but I'd never actually checked them out. They are Amazing!! If you've never heard them, or only heard "Hate Me" Please, Please go check them out. Some of my new favorites are Calling You, Amazing and Black Orchid. I'm including a link for Black Orchid on youtube.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rh6qYhF6SCs

Mornings

So, I'm writing an entry because I have a while to wait. I have a newspaper route, and so does my brother, but we both hve to use his bike. Yes, sadly my bike is useless. This morning we woke up really late, an so my Mom is actually awake. This is not good thing. I hate being around my Mom in the morning. Morning's are a sanctuary for me where only one person besides me is awake.
I have Eight people in my family, so when I Do get privacy, it's very precious.
अलेक्ष् got on runescape last night, when I was. He kinda got it that I was having issues at the football game. "I wish I'd known you were uncomfortable. There was a seat by me.." Ya, like I want to sit next to you and watch you and your date hold hands.. He's really nice though. I didn't realize that he was that kind/thoughful. No, let me rephrase that... Kind and thoughtful, In That Way. It would definately have been better to sit by him than at the end though...

Crowds

I went to the homecoming football game earlier this evening. It started out as awkward because the friends I sat with were all with their homecoming dates, and since I'm not going to homecoming, cause I go to nerd school, I was dateless and awkward.
I got there late, so I was stuck on the end of the row.
I Don't Think I have Ever been Bumped, Kneed, Pushed, or Touched in general as much in my whole Life as in those two hours.
I Don't do crowds. At All. I don't like being Touched so much. And I was already high-strung from school. The result of ALL Those PEOPLE, Me, and No Outlet..... I'm surprised that I didn't kill myself, or someone else.
I couldn't even see the game. I was being, yet again, Stationary with No Purpose!!!!
I am the type of person who would gladly live weeks on end in total seclusion. Not year round, but still. I Need to go hiking so badly right now.
When I got home from the game I went in my backyard and hung my punching bag up. 45 minutes later and I have bloody knuckles. I just had Sooo much pent-up negative energy.

I'm really not bad around people. Really, I'm not. I don't know how to explain my nervous almost-collapse. Maybe it had to do with the fact that एंड्र्यू was going out with मिचेल्ले for homecoming.. Could this really be jealousy? I sure hope not. I don't think I like him like that. He's Absolutely Wonderful, and one of my best friends, but I don't Think I like him that way. He's the one I wanted to talk to after getting my heart ripped out of my chest and stomped on by Nova. I might just be confusing myself.

Rant!!

Okay, I have to write this before I forget.

I got a note in seminary! It was folded a few times. When you open the first fold it says "I think you're beautiful" And when you open it all the way it says (As close as I can remember)

"Are you a true dart? I can't say it doesn't matter to me, because obviously I'm asking. Wow, my hands started sweating like, megabadly when I started writing this."

k, explanation. "True-Darting" Is a highschool tradition in which you have to kiss a true dart through the big "D" at the end of the track feild to become a "True Dart".

This note really annoys me because I Don't Need A Secret Admirer! And I really, Really don't like the kid that I Think wrote it. At first I thought it was Ben, but now I think it was Wes, and I'm not happy. He's a geek. Completely. Not a bad kid, but Definately Not my friend. There are some cute guys in my seminary class, but he's not one.

Why???

So Why am I making a blog?? Well, it's an escape from homework really.. And I really need to keep a journal, but I don't. So this is a compromise. Blame my friend Tiny for me choosing this particular site, it's her fault.
Some things about me...
I go to nerd school and there's only about 370 people in it. I'm going to be taking college classes next semester.
I'm a jounior in highschool and I am age 16.
I am LDS, (Mormon) and my religion is really important to me.
During the summer I work at a scout camp called Camp Bartlett. I love it there, it's my version of heaven. I Adore being in the mountains.
I love most kinds of music. Everything from Rise Against, Children of Bodom, and Devildriver, to MOTAB and Jerico Road. I don't have a favorite classical composer, but Beethoven is definately up there. My favorite modern bands are, as of the moment, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Three Days Grace, and Lifehouse. But, as I said, There's TONS I love.
My favorite color is green. Deep, dark, forrest green.
I'm the shoulder to cry on. My friends come to me with their problem, because they know I care. I'm the one people ask for help.

I guess that's enough for now...