Crowds

I went to the homecoming football game earlier this evening. It started out as awkward because the friends I sat with were all with their homecoming dates, and since I'm not going to homecoming, cause I go to nerd school, I was dateless and awkward.
I got there late, so I was stuck on the end of the row.
I Don't Think I have Ever been Bumped, Kneed, Pushed, or Touched in general as much in my whole Life as in those two hours.
I Don't do crowds. At All. I don't like being Touched so much. And I was already high-strung from school. The result of ALL Those PEOPLE, Me, and No Outlet..... I'm surprised that I didn't kill myself, or someone else.
I couldn't even see the game. I was being, yet again, Stationary with No Purpose!!!!
I am the type of person who would gladly live weeks on end in total seclusion. Not year round, but still. I Need to go hiking so badly right now.
When I got home from the game I went in my backyard and hung my punching bag up. 45 minutes later and I have bloody knuckles. I just had Sooo much pent-up negative energy.

I'm really not bad around people. Really, I'm not. I don't know how to explain my nervous almost-collapse. Maybe it had to do with the fact that एंड्र्यू was going out with मिचेल्ले for homecoming.. Could this really be jealousy? I sure hope not. I don't think I like him like that. He's Absolutely Wonderful, and one of my best friends, but I don't Think I like him that way. He's the one I wanted to talk to after getting my heart ripped out of my chest and stomped on by Nova. I might just be confusing myself.