Random update.

I'm so excited for Saturday!! It's my sister's birthday And Annie's party! Annie's been gone the last five days on a choir trip, and I missed talking to her. It's silly I know, but five days can seem like a lot. Hmm, I just thought of something. Five days seems like a lot, but 2 months seems Sooo short. I'm not looking forward to school being over. Not that I'll be out of school, I'm taking summer college. (yucky) At least that should keep my mind busy. I won't have All day to worry about the future and miss camp. I think I'm glad I'm not going to camp too though. Gary's changing Alot, most of my favorite people from camp will be gone, and I'm not sure Gary'd put me if I Did work there. I'm not Quite old enough to be Archery Director. *grumble grumble* Well, I suppose it doesn't matter anyway. This summer will be devoted to other things.

Confession

I adore you. I can’t get you out of my head. You’re always there, always smiling, always ready to make me smile, and laugh, quit worrying. Every day, the more I find out about you, the more about you there is to love. I know you’re not perfect, but I love your imperfection too. To me, you’re the most perfect person I know. You make me feel like I am worth something special. I feel safe when I’m with you, especially when you hold me. You’re like a rock, steadfast and immovable. I love every moment I spend with you, every new thing I find out, every conspiracy theory, every silly story, every blush. I’m scared though. I don’t want to lose you. I don’t want to lose the piece, every single piece, of me I’ve given you if you don’t want me. I’m a fox, just a stupid, silly-headed little fox. I let myself be tamed. I think I’m in love. I’m sorry. I can’t help it.

Ron Hill

Last night. 11:15 Ron Hill passed away. Brother Hill was an amazing influence on his life. I was converted to the church in his later years, and his relationship with his parent was strained because of it. But because he had faith and felt the love Heavenly Father has for him daily, he was able to raise his family strong in the church. Although he was a nurse, he was unable to diagnose his own symptoms until it was too late. He contracted cancer and it rapidly spread to his stomach, liver, pancreas and other organs. Beloved of his family and friends, he will live in our memories until the day that we can join him in God's presence.

Delusions

I am tired, I am unmotivated, I am bored and I am lazy. I am Not being productive. I just want to find someplace I can go take a nap, but I'm at School! Oh Joy! I Reeaaalllly need to make it through school alive. I'm going Swimming! The other thing, I'm being affected alot by anxiety. Horribly. Tragically. Incompastitatingly! Is that even a word??? Anywho, I feel like I'm going to puke or something! Please give me courage! I need to tell someone. I Think he'd be ok to tell. Ok ok, I need to tell Him! This really can't go on. I'm sure I'm setting myself up for a let down. It's going to happen whether we like it or not. This is So Grossly Wrong!!! Maybe I'm overreacting.. idk, I tend to do that when I'm This tired... Maybe I'll take a nap before swimming. HA! No Time! Maybe a powernap! Those are only 10min! I can do that! I've perfected the art of power naps from camp. I'm expert now!! I know this doesn't make sense, but GOOD!!! Neither do I! Ever!