Yelling

I think people are so ugly when they get mad. Their faces twist and become contorted with such violent emotion. Mostly it is their eyes I don't like.

Eye are like windows to people's heart. They are meant to be warm and happy. Eyes can't be beautiful if they are glazed with anger, contempt, or even sometimes Hate.

If there is anything I hate, it is yelling. It's so easy to say things you don't mean when you lose control and yell. Yelled words are probably the ones we mean least, but the ones that hurt most. They are the words that are hardest to forgive and let go. I don't like myself when I yell at people, and it is hard to like myself when other people yell at Me.

There is just something in my makeup that makes my self-esteem take a really blow when someone yells at me. Or even gets frustrated with me. I know I'm not perfect, but could you please tell me what the problem is before yelling at me about it? I promise I will try my best to fix it.

I'm so stinking insecure sometimes. How many friendships have I gotten out of because someone got mad at me and I felt like I couldn't fix it? Nova got mad at me. Or is it perfectly justified since if a person is going to yell at me, I don't see how it could really get better. Isn't yelling like hitting? It's always easier after the first time.