Jacob

Wow Wow Wow.

I had the most fabulous weekend courtesy of my very own Jacob Anderson.

He took me to a "high class restaurant" with delicious food, romantic music, and candles.

He wouldn't tell me where we were going, only that I needed to be in formal dress, and hungry, and he'd come pick me up at my house after my work. I got home early, got pretty, and Jake arrived. But Mom said she thought the reservations were for later, so we would have to take a walk until it was time for us to go.

Jacob looked soo incredibly handsome in his suit. I hugged him close and he smelled wonderful too. I was so great to be in his arms again. I hate knowing how far apart we are.

We started walking in the direction of the ponds, and the sky started pouring. Drenching pouring. So poor Jacob had to tell me what the plan was, since he thought we would have to cancel. He had a table set up in the park, with music, and candles, and Mom was just finishing the dinner.

So we started home, and the rain absolutely stopped. So we went anyway. We got there, and some kids were messing with the table. They didn't take anything, just messed with it. We'd forgotten the water, so I took the glasses and skipped and twirled in my dress to go fill them in the drinking fountain. I was so happy just to be there with Jacob, and embarrassed and thrilled that he went through all this huge effort, and excited to be able to spend the evening with the love of my life.

The food was delicious, even the steamed carrots. The music was soft and soothing, and Jacob was wonderful. Poor Jacob was all disappointed at what he thought had been one thing after another going wrong. I was thrilled and amazed at surprise after surprise.

After dinner he got out a blanket and we looked at the clouds and one star. It was beautiful. I rested my head on his chest and listened to his heart beat. Could that really be mine?

That night will go down as one of my absolute favorites. So will Sunday.

Sunday was not as happy, but it was good. Jacob and I stayed up very late, talking about Sam, and life, and many great terrible and wonderful things. Things I learned from our conversation: 1. Sam needs all the prayers I can call around for, Zach too. 2. Jacob loves me, and for reasons I can understand. He needs me in the same sort of way that I need him. And I can give him me and that is worth something. 3. Our love is forever. Forever. Perfect, but a kind of perfect whose perfection will grow with time. And we will be given that time 4. Life is short, and harsh, and painful, but worth it.

We cried together, and we hoped together. I needed that, and I think he did too.

When he finally went to bed, my heart was so full. And our connection was so much deeper and more.. I don't even know the word for it. Intimate almost works. I felt like it was time to tell my parents about mine and Jacob's desire to be sealed in the temple after his mission.

They actually treated me like an adult and understood! Such a serene peace came over me. They know, and the approve. They said they'd be proud to have Jake and a son-in-law, but to remember that circumstances change. I politely ignored that. I Know this is right.

Today, Mom came up to be and said, "I'm believing you more and more. Watching the two of you together, I can tell."

We're something special alright. I thought our relationship already went beyond words, but this is more. I'm starting to get a glimpse of the leaps and bounds our love will continue to grow in with time. How did I deserve this happiness? I am so grateful to my Heavenly Father and how he loves me. And for his Plan of Happiness and his son's (our Savior) act of Atonement that allows Jacob and I to be together forever. I can't imagine it any other way. I can't imagine living forever and being happy without him. He's the piece of me I didn't about for 16 1/2 years of my life and couldn't bear to lose now.

I love him, I love him, I love him.
How sweet the words, he loves me too.