Too much

I'm having fun desensitizing myself. I listen to certain songs on repeat. I make myself pass by specific places. I do things over and over until the memories associated with them fade, and ignore the pain until it goes away. I'm sure it's not healthy, but is avoidance healthy either?
I'm realizing more and more that I am a highly emotional person. I try to act and think logically, and most of the time do well. I just seem to have to Feel so much about everything. Almost every thought and action has an emotion tagging along with it.
Is it that I am really such a rollercoaster of emotion, or is it all synthetic fabrication based on some subconsious misconception? I almost lean towards the latter, simply because of how malleable my moods can be. Music in particular has a strong influence. Words and phrases, chords and cadence, they layer me in thoughts and feelings. Does music touch every soul that way though? "Books can be beaten down with reason, but with all my knowledge and skepticism, I have never been able to argue with a one-hundred-piece symphony orchestra...." Farenheit 451 Hm.. maybe.
Here lies the other part of my struggle: disorganization. There is a glass inside of me where I have been keeping thoughts and feelings. I keep putting more and more into the glass, rather than speak or express. They now spill over the edges, with no more space to fill. There is too much there to arrange anything coherantly before it comes out.
At other times, I have delt with this glass by pouring it's contents into glass mason jars which I then seal tightly and carefully slide onto the old oak shelf where I keep such things. Eventually though, this shelf fills, breaks, or get jostled just so, and the jars shatter.
Consider for a moment the contents spilling and mixing and leaking out of me.. Let me assure you, it is Not a pretty thing.
Is there counselling for this sort of thing?
Would I use it if there were?