Friday

It's Raining again! And it is morning! And it is beautiful!

So.... Friday was senior graduation. Jacob's graduation. Talk about traumatic. My entire morning was spent half flipping out. "He's graduating, Omgoodness. I have to meet his grandparents, what if they don't like me. Gah! He's old now.. why should he still hang out with Me? Crap, I'm not pretty today. I should have woken up earlier. Life is changing, I'm scared. I shouldn't be, I'm stupid. Change is good. I hate it. Ahhhhh!!!!!!" That's pretty much how it went. Ya, Ya. John brother already told me I'm psycho.

I was calmer when I finally got to the Austad Theatre, Lots better when Jake came early to keep me company, and then Katie came like a spot of sunshine. His Grandparents are all very nice, and I didn't flubb anything up Too bad. You should be so proud of me, I didn't even cry during the ceremony. Even though there were amazing speakers, and goose-bump-raising music. (the good kind)

Sis. Anderson invited me to dinner, and made sure I was coming. I felt really proud that Jacob's family wanted me to share such a special day with them. It was his favorite meal : Loaf of Goodness and Cheesecake after. I think I should learn how to make it. I spent some time before dinner playing outside with Katie and Daniel and even Sam. Jake played too and it was just so fun. They are all amazing on the trampoline. I can spin and that's about it.

After eating and being questioned by his Grandpa Richin, Katie and I went up in the f.r.o.g. (family room over garage) We played with Daisy, and hid from Jake, and were just silly in general. Then we watch Rocky. We as in Jacob, Katie, Sam, and Daniel-ish. Daniel was on the computer, but in the room. Jake was very tired, so I he got to lay down with his head on a pillow on my lap and I got to play with his hair. *happiness* He kept looking up at me all warm and fuzzy. I'm glad it was dark, I was prolly blushing.

Bro. Anderson came in around half way through, and I stopped playing with Jacob's hair. I wasn't sure how he would react. Jacob didn't move his head from my lap though, so I guess it was ok. I wish I knew what they were both thinking though. I liked Rocky. I'm sure I'm biased, but I really did like the movie too. It was very late when the movie ended.

When Jacob was driving me home, he said that it was as good as a walk and we should talk. I still need to tell him about Nova, but since it's not a happy subject, I didn't want to talk about it just yet. He told me he also had skeletons in his closet, and admitted that's why I'd seen him look like he was in pain during seminary sometimes, when I asked.

I asked what he'd needed to talk to me about. Something my Dad had said when we were all talking had been bothering him. We talked about it and I think we both learned things we needed to know. He.. He is so incredible. I care about him so much. Sooo Much. I can't write how wonderful that drive was for us on here... But I think that there have been very few times I have ever come Close to that level of emotion. It went So deep.

I wonder if he Really knows how often I'm thinking about him, or how much I truly care about him. I really want this to last forever. I can't imagine how I could be more happy.