Complications

Dear Self,
Life has recently become more complicated. Carston and Annie. Squishy. Me. We're a foursome and play and laugh, and get in trouble and cause mischief wherever we go. Carston and Annie are getting a bit more serious, even though they've been keeping it on the down low. This leaves Squsih and I to our own devices sometime. He is Incredible. Mad skills, intensely loyal, but prickly and extremely selective about who he lets in and how far. He's serious and stubborn, but he's also Ful of insane crazy happy energy. He can bring humor to anything and he's always bouncy. The problem is that we are both single, kind of jealous of Annie and Carston, and we've both admitted mutual attraction, but also the desire to not do anything about it. .. just yet.
We've been smart about it I think. Both upfront and honest. I'm just scared of what I might want and what I can't give. I hope with all of me that we will always be friends and that I can always be there for him. He needs someone to trust.