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I feel so different. So much older, so much wiser, so immature and so stupid. Sometimes I feel like I never had a childhood. Other times I think I never grew out of it. Attending a singles ward, where I am my own person, has helped me walk out of the limbo between being young and being an 'Adult'. But I'm not there yet. I want to cling to the past and the last shreds of innocence and immaturity. But I long to be my own person and do things my way. Start over and Start Right. But I have to be ready. I Will Not be one of those 'adults' who is so childish and immature that they can't see past themselves.
I'm growing and learning in ways that I didn't know that I ever would. I suppose that's natural. The spirit, the gospel, and all I believe in invites change. I guess it just takes me off guard when I think of it.
I want to take advantage of the opportunities placed in front of me. But I am scared by the consequences. How do you make decisions like this that will affect you for possibly the rest of your life?